I really want this change to happen in my life. I want to be able to look in the mirror, & be happy with what I see for the first time. That would be nice for a change! I have done pretty good today, but I ALWAYS do good for the first 3-5 days, & then it's back to normal again, but this time I want to make my change the normal. I keep on seeing the seen where Hanna says that she felt like she was nothing. It keeps playing over, & over in my head, & I continue to say to myself I AM WORTH IT, but at the same time I just keep remembering how MANY times I have failed in the past.
I also keep seeing the seen when everyone especially Hanna, & Olivia come out busting through the paper of their before photo how confident, & bold they are, & how the walk with their head held high, & mostly how they are SO HAPPY with themselves, & they have every right to be! I am so very proud of them. One day that will be me. When I lose all my weight I want to meet them, & hug them how they hugged Bob, & Jillian, & let them know how much they have inspired me. I have got to get to work on this though! I know this will not be no walk in the park, but it sure does help when you have others around you that will join this journey with you!
I really want to show that clip to my family & friends and let them know that that is how I feel, but I can't bring myself to do it. I don't want to look stupid or just hear them say please or whatever! I have NEVER related to another person on TBL like this. Yes I have always understood what they are going through or how they are unhappy, but there is just something about Hannna that just clicks with me! I know that since they did it I can do it too. Yea they were on TBL, & had trainers & all, but I have the best trainer in the world on my side, & that is GOD!!!
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