I am so very frustrated. I can not do this on my own like I have said in the past. It is very hard when you don't have a support system at all. Other than coming short of just setting the one's down in my life, and telling them look I need your help. I have said it in conversations before, but just setting them down, and looking them in the eye, and telling them. I haven't! Ok mom and dad knows I want and need to lose weight, and so they want to do the same, BUT 2-3 mornings a week they go get doughnuts for breakfast, and just saying NO to eat doughnuts when you are just starting out is VERY hard, and I feel that is where I fail.
I have let food control me for so long, and I can't seem to get it under control. I know if I went to tell people about how hard it is not only just mom, and dad, but EVERYONE around me the response I will get is just don't eat it. Ok that is HARD true, but HARD!! I feel so stupid for this whole blog at times like I shouldn't even be complaining about this when there is people out there a WHOLE lot worse off than just battling weight!
I am so lost in this shell of mine AND very unhappy.
Well enough complaining for one night!
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